Zie is back...for awhile

hihihihii!!! i haven't been around huh? so sorry, things are a bit hectic nowadays. Campus becomes really busy and well, i really don't have time to sit and write about what's going on. Lotz in my mind actually. But i'm kinda lazy to write about it. Ask my diary... hahhaahhaa... I haven't written in her for like ages too. hehehehe...

Well, overall, I finally finished my course, in Darwis Triadi - School of Photography... it was loads of fun! i got new friends, and the course was really good,and well, hoping to join in the club next week. I miss my friends already! i really wish i could attend the intermediate course, but maybe after lebaran. I don't know what we'll be doing, but i'm really looking forward to it. I really want to be this cool photographer, but all the photos I made haven't really made the best shots. I guess, practice makes perfect, don't you think!?

Guess what? I'm actually listening to old songs I used to like... well, and still do. hahahaha... like Ultra - "Say it Once" ahhahahahahaha... i gotta say, i'm laughing at myself, cuz its really cute! haiehieahiaehiae.. i think i loved this song when i was in 10th grade or something! ahihaeihaeihaeiheaihiae.... memories! ahahhahaha!!!

Gone with the Wind...

Wow... haven't been writing for a LONG time... ehehhee... well, i have been busy lately with a lot of thingz... and enjoying myself which is good... and so dat my mind would be calm...

ok... something useful... tomorrow i'm going to study photography in the "Darwis Triadi - School of Photography"!! HUWAAA!! i'm really looking forward to it!!! cuz it'z something i've always wanted to do! ehehhe.. so.. i'll have to do thiz... for meeee!!!!

Speaking of photos.. i had several taken with my sista.. in her room!!! and this is one of the picz.. hahahha....
*set on mode "NARCIST"* thank you!! hahahahah.. thank you.... hahahahaha... if you notice.. i did cut a bit of my hair.. hahaha.. so yeah.. :D i had to take pics of myself... hiaehieahiaiheaehiaehae....

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FAV. SONG AT THE MOMENT

"Bend And Not Break" by Dashboard Confessional

I catalog these steps now
Decisive and intentioned precise and patterned specifically to yours.
I'm talented at breathing
Especially exhaling
So that my chest will rise and fall with yours
I'm careful not to wake you
Fearing conversation
It's better just to hold you
And keep you pacified
I'm talented with reason
I cover all the angles
I can fail before I ever try

Try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break)
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break)

I am fairly agile
I can bend and not break
Or I can break and take it with a smile
And I am so resilient
I recover quickly
I'll convince you soon that I am fine

Try to understand there's and old mistake that fools will make
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break)
Wont you hold me now (For you I rise, for you I fall)

Just hold me close to you,
just hold me close to you
Just hold me close to you,
just hold me close to you, to you

And try to understand there's and old mistake that fools will make
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
So wont you hold me now?
Wont you hold me now?
Now, now, now, now, now

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The best !!!! Gosh.. i first heard this song from my cousin, Edo... thank you so much, bro!! you're the best...
juz a song to represent me to lift up again... to see the next adventure i have to take.... :D i'm not holding back now... I want to make thingz happen...

Hopefully the next time.. i'll be able to write again... :D and Thank you to the ppl who still readz my blogspot !!!! Love you alll!!!!!

Jakarta Movement!!!!!!

the coolest event for the year!! It was wickeddd!!! you can say that this is my first 'rave' party... after so longggggggggggggggggg in waiting...........!! And now i get to enjoy it with a few friends and new friendz... but also enjoying the atmosphere... Now i gotta try the rave parties in Europe!!! hahahahahhaa!! that will be uhmm... later i supoz... when i'm older and already have a job and all!....

It was an experienceeeeeeee!!! Life was juz good!!! First... went to the "Progressive" Arena first!! it was sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!! totally!!! and next... the "R'n'B HIP-HOP" arena!! waaaahhhh!!! it was the killer!!! that was when everyone danced with everybody... and i think our group was the only one really into the music!! Body-grinding and all!!! it was the BOMB!!!

Next year, i'm definitely going againnnnnn!!!! HAHHAhahAHAH!!! Hopefully by that time, i'll have a BF that ALSO can ENJOY these kind of MUSIC!!!!! NOT LIKE LAST YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xP

FCUK YOU!!!
 
*the mind speaks it words after a night of truth*
 
 
Now i know the truth...
U don't need to explain why...
Cuz itz all written in your aura...
That you're nothing!!

The night we had...
was juz an answer to my question...
So don't look back...
Never say you cared....

All i know itz worth it...
that we went thru this...
so itz all revealed...
so i could reach something more...

I don't need you as anything...
I don't have tears for you anymore...
I thot there was hope...
But no, I was wrong...

You say u have a heart...
That you have faith in your belief...
Bullshit , I say... why?
Cuz we all are sinners....

And ur one of them...
No one should pity 4 you...
No one should be near you...
You're juz plain evil...

So thanks for your f*cking lies...
Cuz it made me see...
the truth that you're juz nothing
but trash to my eyes....

Hope u have a happy life after all this, asshole!

 
 
 

"When u think that everything will turn out fine... then comes the time when you don't expect things to happen this way... it totally goes the opposite of what you have looked forward to... "
 
right now... i can't think or breathe... nor can i think... so i will juz give you a lyric of a song that i've been listening for these few dayz.... and let you figure out yourself... :)

"Vindicated"

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing,
so hypnotizing
I am captivated
 
[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
 
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that
 
[Chorus]
 
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]
 
[Chorus]
 
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

A Hard's Day Work, a Reward in the end...
 
Saturday,17 july 2004
 
 I cleaned up the house... after that flood on Monday, on Saturday, we were all able to clean up and put back all the furniture in place!! ok.. it was like 11am till 4pm !!! pushing, pulling carpets here and there... clean2... and all that.. and i have to say, it was really funnn!!! knowing that later on, the house would be like new!! totally new! heiheihie! :) nice isn't it?!hihihi...
 
in the evening, i was allowed to go out!!! ( Thank GOD!) it was gibran's party in Rouge, so i went there with my friendz... Thika and her cousins... and met up with Ardo and Frido! :D well, the music was ok, is juz that there weren't many ppl there.. so it wasn't a place where u would wanna dance on your own... so... yeah....
 
Sunday,18 july 2004
 
and becuz i felt so bored, i heard that BLISS was havin' an RnB Hip Hop night.. so eventually me and Ardo went there... to get our groovez back! heiheheie... Thika, ssssssssoooooo wanted to come along, but she couldn't cuz one of her cousins wanted to go home and her bf isn't in the mood... oh well, it was fine... :D so i enjoyed my nite with Ardo!!! the place was packed... more packed then the other time I went to Bliss but the music was "Drum 'N Basz" ... which turn out to be an unforgetful night hihihihi!!!
 
I guess yeah, in life, there's rights and obligations... and now i'm trying to work my way to it.. so life would be balance..........
 
Love you, GoD....
 
 
 
 

long time no see!
 
wow... i muz say, this year isn't my year... so many thingz are happening.. and not really good onez either... you can say that if life was a wheel, i'm actually down below where the wheel hits the ground.. if u know what i mean....
 
i don't know how to get all thiz.. but i know there's always an explanation behind it.. in the end.. like it'z telling me something.. that i should wake up and see the surroundings.. smell the scents of nature... and it'z signs.... this week for one thing isn't the best week ...
 
First = my house was flooded. Water was in the house, all carpets were soaking wet!
 
Second = Dad scolded ONLY me... becuz of my stupid judgement during the flood, ( yez, it'z my fault )
 
Third = He gave me a silent treatment... its so cold.. and unbearable... ( i need to be loved... ) <<< i'm such a spoiled-brat huh? sorry..
 
ARGGGHHHHH!!!!! oh well, i learned my lesson this week.... i 've been so... distance... i better change my attitude.. and have a grip of myself... cuz if i don't... i'll might as well jump off a cliff............ 
  



 
I met Dhee today!
 
yez, today i met my best freakin' biaaaatttccchhh, Dhee... met in PS and had a LONG.. LONG chat about our wackiest livez... and the funny thing is.. it'z so almost a like.. i mean, the life we're actually experiencing....hihihiihi.. pretty cute!! heiehe... well, we took pictures and stuff.. she'll be sending me the picturez one day! also did photobox!!! i'll scan them as soon as possible ... heiheihe... I miss her so much... i gotta go to Yogya one day! miss that placeee.... but i have to have a camera if i do go there again.. if possible... :D heihiehiee...